sick and tired, tired and sick

2004-10-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

I was suppose to be up by 5:30 am, but I couldn't seem to pull myself out of bed! So 6:15 am I finally got up. I had to talk to the hubby get hime to go out with the kids and start them getting ready for school. I get out of the shower and next thing I know hubby is in the bedroom bitchy about me not turning the fan on to vent the steam out. I tried to make a joke about and asked him "whos your daddy?" Needless to say that didn't go over well at all (hubby in a bad mood due to Red Sox once again lossing to the Yankees). He said something stupid like "yeah, make a joke you're not the one who has to fix it." Talk about pissing me off please how many times do I have to fix things that he fucks up, or have to pick up after him because he is unable to pick up his own shit. I don't complain..I pick it up with a smile on my face. He comes home from work his dinner is on the table, the house is clean, his clothes are washed, hang up. Our kids all have their homework done, have had a bath and have been read to before bed. Yet I get a lecture about not using a vent fan. Yes, I am pissed. He does not get it...how much I work, how much I am stressed.

Wow, I was just reading through my post and realized what a terrible speller I am. I am find that very funny...can read book a day but can't spell for shit. Today has gotten a little better, the twins are been being good, Nikki is home sick today but she isn't being a twitch about it. She just wants to go out and play. Thats a big NO-NO. You stay home...you stay inside. I love days like this nothing major going on.

The silence of the night

2004-10-13T17:49:00.000-07:00

Sitting here at The Borg Cube (thats the name of this computer) trying to figure out what makes me think that my life is so interesting to write about. Lets just start with the basic facts of who I am. Now, thats an interesting question isn't it?? Lets start from here...I was born about 31 years ago to a mom and dad who shouldn't have had a dead cat let alone a child to take care of. I then had a baby (Nikki) at the age of 21,got married, had a son at 23 (Will), got divorced, went online and found Henry, had twins (Alex and Faye-lynn), got married to Henry just this past July. Now, here I am 31 years old wondering where all the time I thought I had went. I was once going to college, study law now all I study is the tv guide trying to figure out when the twins favorite cartoons are on so that by some chance I can get a chance to pee alone! Don't get me wrong I love being a stay at home mom of 4 but there are times when its just.........to much.

I look around at my life and sometimes wonder is this is...is this all that I am ...mom, wife, maid, chef, crisis team leader or is there more to this life? Maybe its both or none of it.

Diary of a Desperate Housewife

sick and tired, tired and sick

The silence of the night